Trying to make new friends isn't very easy...

Well, first off I'm just nervous as fuck when it comes down to things. My therapist says that I over think a lot of things and this is one of them... I've always dreamed of myself having like a little group of friends, and I've noticed that I have this huge void that grows bigger and bigger from not having friends in the first place. I mean, shit it's difficult. I have to hang around with Jordan a lot... and he doesn't like talking to other people when I'm with him. So basically, after school from now on, I need to sit with other people other than Jordan. I really don't want to push my relationship and make Jordan talk to his Dad anymore yaddayadda... cause I know he's not going to do it, and if he does, he doesn't actually want to. That's why I need to make friends... so I can go to shows, sleepovers, parties, movies, and do all the fun teenager stuff that I've been wanting to do. I need a lot of luck here though... it's pretty damn scary making new friends.